DATE: 04/20/2008 11:42:12 / MOOD: in love

hey everyone!!hope all ok.

seems like ages since i was on here.

everything been so hectic lately.we are moving in the next few weeks and packing around 2 babies is proving to b a big chore lol!!

joshua has also recently been diagnosed as autistic,so im still tryin to get my head around that.

good thing is where we are moving to is still close enough for joshua to continue at his same school.

bradley is just out of hospital with suspected meningitis.but it turned out to just b a virus,thank god!!

and jus now all the kids are ill with the flu!!

on a happier note,,,i start college in 4 months!!!cant wait!!

guna b strange going out an buyin all ma pens pencils and paper an folders an stuff lol!!god will feel like im bk at school lol!!

well i jus wanted to say hi and hope everyone is still keeping well.

spk soon,all,and enjoy your sunny sunday!!!

xxxxxxxxxxxx

 

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DATE: 04/03/2008 08:35:23 / MOOD: in love

hi everyone!!

god seems like ages since i been on here!!

so just to let everyone know,all is ok,i just havent managed to et on bc much,everytime i try it crashed on me.

but everything is fine.an know ill b back on now i can.

take care everyone!!!xx

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DATE: 02/06/2008 08:40:01 / MOOD: in love

ok,im in middle of teaching bradley to potty train,and as usual gettin frustrated lol!!!i struggle to get bradley to sit in one place long enough to do anything let alone use the potty!!

any help plzzz????xxxx

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DATE: 02/05/2008 07:46:59 / MOOD: in love

hi everyone.it seems like ages since i bin on here,but last week my pc broke and we are on a borrowed one til our new one arrives.

hope everyone ok?xxxxxx

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DATE: 01/24/2008 10:58:28 / MOOD: happy

hi everyone!!its been a while since ive been on,but its been a bit hectic lately!
few weeks ago bradley came down with the bug thats going around.but he was ok after 2 days.then caitlyn had her mmr injection on thursday last week,and been ill ever since.she got so bad the other day that she had a temperature of 39.5,so we rushed her to g-doc and she has a bad ear infection.she is now on meds an on the mend.
i had my interview yesterday at the college,and my friend,who has already done the nursing course warned me that even if im nervous i need to keep talking,as its confidence they look for.so it stuck in my mind yesterday when i got there,so i thought i did ok.i had to write down a bit about myslef and why i wanted to do the course,then wen i was done she asked why i had wrote on my application form n/a next to qualifications,so i explained i did really bad at school and couldnt remember them anyway.she looked on the paper and sed it didnt matter as i have 3 children and that life experience counts for more than any qualification.so she asked if i had any questions and i said yes when will i know if i got in??she laughed and called me pushy!she said they would have there decision by the end of the day but by law they need to send me a letter,which can take up to 2 weeks!!i said can you not just call me as it quicker??which had her laughin agen,and she sed well i will still need to send a letter but coz u are so pushy i may give u a call too,but she said it wouldnt b that day as she was busy.
so i got home an within an hour i got a call.she was laughing and said well i thought id put you out of your misery and let you know i will be sending you a letter offering you a place on the course!!
im so happy!!!i cant believe i did it!!
now all i need to do is be patient and wait til august!!!!!

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DATE: 01/18/2008 21:30:42 / MOOD: angry

grrrrrrrrrr!!!there must be something wrong with my computer.this is the first chance ive been able to get on practically all wekk,an ive noticed wen i click on live chat,all i get is a blank screen.hence the reason i aint been able to join the live chats!im gettin really annoyed with it!is it jus my comp or is there summit wrong with bc??

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DATE: 01/11/2008 15:09:11 / MOOD: sick

hi everyone,i just had to post about this as it has hit me quite hard,and i cant really understand why.this week there has been a programme on called Kill it, Cook it, Eat it!,and it is showing you the process of the animals we eat and what they have to go through for us to have meat.its really disturbing,as i have always loved meat,i didnt think i could ever live without meat!on monday they showed you piglets being slaughtered and they show you the WHOLE process,from slaughter to gutting an cooking then they show you ppl eating it.i was supposed to make sausage casserole on the tuesday,and i made it fine,but the minute we sat down to eat i managed one bite and i pictured this poor little piglet,and i felt sick to my stomach.so i couldnt eat anymore.they have also shown goats,cows,and lambs.i have to say this has all touched me deeply and i think i have cried every night while watching it,iain kept asking why watch it,and i said i dont know lol!!i really dont know why i kept watching it,i guess it was just curiousity.but since watching it,i have become deeply ashamed for wot those animals have to go through for us to eat.i know thats wot they are breed for and i can handle iain an the kids eating it,but it has left an imprint on my mind that i just cant get rid of.and so,have decided to become a vegetarian.if anyone is interested in it at all they are showing all for from mon-thursday tonight.i cant remember wot channel but if you have sky look through your channels for round 10/half 10.but be warned it is disturbing.

sorry if im made anyone feel ill,i just wanted to get across why i have become vegetarian from bein a mad meat lover!i think dep down meat eaters put to the back of there mind wot goes on behind the scenes,and seein it just brings forward something i never really knew happened.

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DATE: 01/07/2008 16:00:52 / MOOD: don't know

hi everyone,hope all ok?i think ive probably had the worst few days ever,and the strange thing is i cant explain why.

i have suffered depression on an off practically my whole life,but never to this extent.i have been feeling like im a crap mum as i have been feeling ready for just walking out of here an not coming back.(i know deep down id never do it!)but i feel like crying all the time,and i have lost my urges to clean an just about do anything.iain only realised last night something was wrong as wen we were lying in bed he heard me crying,and wen he asked wot was wrong i didnt have an answer.how can i tell him wot is wrong wen i dont even know??he has even offered to let me stay at my mums for few days an he will look after the kids,but i know he is just wanting me better,and willing to try anything,but i know he wouldnt cope with them all.so its not really an option.i know he just worried as last time i was depressed i left him.but the last time i was down by something he had done,this time im down for no reason whatsoever.

im actually quite scared myself as ive never felt this way before.and what scares me more is feeling like such a failure.why can other parents cope,and not me?does this make me a bad person??????

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DATE: 01/04/2008 02:39:30 / MOOD: sick

hi guys.hope all is well with everyone?its 2.40am an ive been up sick for half hr!!really bad sickness an diarrhea.funny thing is i read on internet its goin around only last nyte,ad thought,god,hope kids dont get it lol!im all shivery an cold an feel bloody awful!jus hope i can get bk to sleep!xx

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