hi everyone.well i am in a lot of pain.i cant even explain wot i done!i was bending down to put washing in the machine,an i cudnt get up!!i was just in agony.and since then i cant bend down or stretch,or anything.even wen i try sit down i am near tears,and standing bk up.....well thats jus a joke!!im like a heavily pregnant woman!!an again it almost brings me to tears.i thought id mayb just pulled a muscle,but now wen i try walk its like its seizing up,and its affecting my legs.iain thinks ive mayb slipped a disc.is that bad?poor iain has had to do everything tonight bless him.change caitlyn an get her settled,and it didnt help that bradley was sick!i cudnt do a thing!iain had to bath him and settle him and then clean it up!!and he has had to make the dinner,which wasnt easy as we had guests!!i jus pray this doesnt last long,as i feel for iain.and i cant even lift one of the babies.i feel so useless!!

hi again!!ok,about 2 months ago,we ordered one of those tellys u put pound coins into??iain usually lets bradley do it,as he knows exactly where it goes,bless him.well i made the mistake one night of taking my wedding ring and eternity ring off when i was doin dishes and forgot to put them back on.the next morning when i went for them,they were gone.i have been in a right state ever since,as we have turned this place upside down looking.this was a month ago.we are thinkin bradley has maybe put them in the pound box on the telly!!it gets emptied today so fingers crossed!!!ill let yaz no!xx 

hi everyone.sorry im jus bored!  so how is everyones xmas shopping goin??we are nrly done.we have all the kids stuff from "santa"we just have few adults things left to get.not long now!!i always get excited about now,but who doesnt when they have children??since having kids im like a child again myself!!lol!im even gettin impatient waiting until the 2th to put decorations up!!i admit i got my present early,but only coz me and iain had a huge bust up,and he wanted to give me something to cheer me up.i got a laptop(so men sometimes do take a hint,jus takes a while!)!!so i am kinda hoping for the sims 2 now to play on it lol!!i love writing stories,and b4 having the babies i actually wrote a book,but never got round to doing anything with it.so im thinkin of starting my writing back up again now i have the laptop.anyone else know what they getting yet???

hi everyone.hope all is well?its 4am and i have had about an hours sleep,on and off.caitlyn has suffered bronchilitis on and off now for months,so woth the cold weather we have been keeping her indoors,so as not to risk her gettin it again.but on sunday i made the mistake of letting my homestart worker take the babies out.i wrapped her up to the point she could barely move!but on sunday night she started coughing.was nothing serious,and she managed to sleep all night.monday morning she woke with a coughing fit,and was sick all over me.but afterward she was her normal self.she did cough alot throughout the day though so iain went shopping and i stayed at home with her.she wasnt sick again all day,until the evening when she coughed herself sick again all over the place.to the point where she turned purple.by which point i was freaked.iain called nhs24,and bcoz of her past they said to take her to the nearest keydoc.they said it ws just a bug.(thank god!)as she wasnt feverish,or upset by it at all.well.....she has had me awake ALL night.crying an coughing.her fever is 37.9,which isnt worryingly high but higher than it should be.so now im worried.she is now suffering the things the doctor said to look out for.i finally have her sleeping after giving her calpol,but i dont know what to do.the doctor and iain have said to give her a few days see if it clears.but im scared that if it has turned into bronchilitis if i leave it,she may end up back in hospital for days,which i dont want.do i leave it a few days?or go with my instinct an take her back to the doctors?

from a very tired and anxious mum!x

hi everyone.i am jus updating a blog i wrote a while back now.dont no if you will remember i wrote about a young lassie we allowed into our home jus to b screwed over??well she is back and causing so much crap!!she ran away with my husbands brother pretending to be pregnant!he is now home realising wot a fool he has been.but she has now been calling iains gran and mum yelling abuse down the phone,which i have aready had a fight with her mother over,saying i will sort this out if she doesnt stop it.

well i found out yesterday she has done something else that has just crossed a line,and im ready to kill!!why do ppl have to be so nasty??i am so angry ryte now i am ready for doing something about it myself,and i know it aint worth gettin done over,but i cant help feeling like this!!ive already nearly bin kicked off a bus bcoz of the girls mum as i almost smacked her.i dont no how much more i can take until i snap.i no i shouldnt be going on like this but i needed to get it out,and iain just doesnt like talking about it.