hi everyone.well i went to see iain in hospital today,he was lying in bed looking awful,with a raging fever.he is off the drips,but can barely speak and has a mouth full of ulcers,and cant even eat.he is on steriods and they took blood to do loads of tests,and they have done a chest xray as they also thought he had pneumonia.i spoketo a nurse myself and was told he wouldnt get out today.i got home about 6,and he called soon after saying the xray came back that he had slight pneumonia.and the blood results havent ecen came back yet,and the doctor said they will send them on to the gp.and they let him go!!can you believe that???they have sent him home with steriods for his mouth and anti-biotics for the pneumonia.he had no way of getting home at half 6,so had to get the bus.long journey,just to his mums town let alone here.i was so excited thinking he was finally guna be at home with me tonight.so wen i hadnt heard from him i called his mums an she put him on and he sed he was wishing he was stil at the hospital as he was shaky and couldnt get warm,so he was staying with his mum tonight.i was heartbroken!i sed why u stayin there?cant you come home?he sed i can but i feel really bad so just want to stay with my mum tonight.which has made things worse for me.i know its his mum,but what is wrong with me looking after him?why does it have to be her?i have been sitting here for 2 days nearly worried out of my head an he doesnt even want to come home to me?i know this may seem petty,but i feel it should be me he wants to come home to.he nrly 30,and married now surely that counts?ive been in tears tonight because i thought he was missing me as much as i was him,but it was his mum he wanted.sorry people,i just feel a little put out.specially as he hasnt even called me yet an he said he would at 8

hey everyone.i slept awful!ended up on the sofa as i cant really sleep on the bed wen iain not there(sad,i know!)i had called iain after 10,and he was in agony,so i think he realises it not good thing to discharge himself.im going in today,but visitin hours in his ward dont start til 2.need help actually.you know hospital food,it never fills you an your always left starving.well iain was starved last night!!so,i was thinkin of taking him things in to snack on.but what?it needs to fill him,but needs to b soft and something a diabetic can eat.i want to get something nice for him,i just cant think wot,as it needs to be really soft.xx

hey everyone.have spoke to iain.he is on an insukin drip an saline drip.he has a bad infection in his mouth which had caused all this as he hadnt known it was there til it was too late.so am happy it has been found out an is jus an infection.he has bin told he needs to stay in for few days,which is already drivin him crazy as they wont let him out for a smoke!!lol!i am goin through with his mum tomorrow,cant wait to see him.miss him already!!

i do feel im goin through it jus now!!but hopefully there is light now,as we no wot wrong an it can b treated an i may b pregnant!but i wont find out for a while as iain wary of testin yet,so wants to wait few weeks.grrrrrrrrr,men!!lol.thanks guys for caring.im jus glad it was nothing serious.xx